A freckle of disappointment,
Suddenly steals the beauty from her face.
The feeling of worthlessness,
Has left its trace of disgrace.
A teardrop mixed with regret and
determination,
Eyes shut due to the pandemonium in her head,
She cannot escape.
The determination probably evaporates with
incoming dread.
Dread from the possibility of failing all
over again,
The fear of missing out.
Inability to live up to her own
expectations,
Or indecisiveness due to the cloud of
doubt.
Why didn’t I do what I had to?
She questions herself relentlessly.
Why have I lost focus?
Why can’t I do what is necessary?
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When you have nothing to lose?
How do you make a decision?
How do you hit multiple bulls eyes of your
dreams with precision?
The answers probably lie in her dream
themselves,
In how-hard and for-which-ones is she ready
to work to make them real?
Is she ready to paint a mountain pink?
Give enough time and effort required to
create a flower that stinks?
She needs to stop convincing herself,
Of things that aren’t true.
She needs to make a decision,
That she subconsciously knew.
Her mind must open up,
Needs to become positive and self
confident.
Explore all the options
And not feel ashamed of her heads conflict.
Yes, maybe what she wants isn’t what she
needs.
But what if she desires to want what she
needs?
What does she do then?
Kanksha :)
Thanks for reading!
