I feel more excited these days. More energetic, more like myself. I feel like I'm taking things personally less, because I'm more confident in who I am. I feel prettier, which is such a weird thing to feel.
I feel less alone. I feel like the possibilities are endless. This city is so empowering and inviting for people to explore, I am beginning to realize what all it has to offer (thanks to my sister). All that one needs to do is go outside. Take a walk. No cash needed either. Stare at the clouds moving fast. Look at the eccentric buildings. Watch people wearing the most interesting clothes. Sit at the subway and listen to people play peaceful music. Put your hand in the middle and feel exhilarated as you stop the train. Sit at the park and read a book. Walk into a museum. Apply for a lottery and watch a play on Broadway and magic will be before your eyes.
So much to do. I can do things with a friend, I can have adventures myself. I can compliment a stranger, and get complimented myself. What a wonderful place to be in.
I'm feeling great today. That's really not how I feel everyday. But I'm writing this as a reminder to myself that it is possible to feel this way. To feel joy, excitement, anticipation, with diminishing anxiety and stress. Even if it's only for a little while.
To future Kanksha, better days will come and go. Just live this life doing what you want, keep communicating what you want honestly to everyone, and do atleast one thing that makes you smile everyday.
To whoever is reading this, I wish you these kind of days more than the other kind <3
Love,
Kanksha
