What does she do then?

A freckle of disappointment,

Suddenly steals the beauty from her face.

The feeling of worthlessness,

Has left its trace of disgrace.

A teardrop mixed with regret and determination,

Eyes shut due to the pandemonium in  her head,

She cannot escape.

The determination probably evaporates with incoming dread.

Dread from the possibility of failing all over again,

The fear of missing out.

Inability to live up to her own expectations,

Or indecisiveness due to the cloud of doubt.

Why didn’t I do what I had to?

She questions herself relentlessly.

Why have I lost focus?

Why can’t I do what is necessary?

[I make awful illustrations :")]

What do you choose?

When you have nothing to lose?

How do you make a decision?

How do you hit multiple bulls eyes of your dreams with precision?

The answers probably lie in her dream themselves,

In how-hard and for-which-ones is she ready to work to make them real?

Is she ready to paint a mountain pink?

Give enough time and effort required to create a flower that stinks?

She needs to stop convincing herself,

Of things that aren’t true.

She needs to make a decision,

That she subconsciously knew.

Her mind must open up,

Needs to become positive and self confident.

Explore all the options

And not feel ashamed of her heads conflict.

Yes, maybe what she wants isn’t what she needs.

But what if she desires to want what she needs?

What does she do then?

Kanksha :)

Thanks for reading!

Life and its Infinite Line Segment

Infinite Road at MahalaxmiRaceCourse

Nothing gets better than sitting in the summer breeze. I watch the grass dancing in the wind. A man goes by on his tractor. People jogging are too busy engrossed in themselves and barely spare me a glance.

I make myself get up from the bench. Ahead of me lies an infinite road. Infinite because it has no beginning and no end. It is circular.

Numbers are infinite, the universe is infinite and so is the number eight (just kidding!) But the line is the most intriguing infinite thing of all. You can extend it in both ways.Time is like a line. Think about it. Do you believe time had a beginning or will have an end? Whatever happens to the Earth, time isn't going to stop. EVER. And I think that's pretty intense.

Life on the other hand is like a line segment. Everyone hopes it is a long one for them! You start your journey by a collision and end it with a system error that leads to a complete breakdown. A fixed beginning, and an unknown yet definite end. 

Although sometimes, line segments extend too, you know? Like an imaginary dotted line segment that keeps reeling away. People may have finished their life, but that doesn't mean it's the end for them. They're remembered for millenniums. And in that, another infinity is created. 

In that infinity too, we have countless memories. There are memories of today, yesterday, last month and a year ago. Once made, memories last forever in our mind. They never end. And on most occasions, you keep making even more until your head is engulfed by them. They're like rays - beautiful, unique and everlasting although they have a definite beginning. Some of them are ugly, but when you come to think about it, harmful, harmless and helpful rays all exist, don't they?

Time is like a line. Maybe that's why we have "timelines."
Memories and rays share similarities. They go on till forever and ever.
And life is like a line segment having a possibility of ending at its own tiny infinity.

The blog just completed two years of its line segment. I'm hoping the line segment is a tiny infinity in itself too. xD 

THANKS SO MUCH FOR READING AND WATCHING THE BLOG GROW! LOVE YOU GUYS <3

Kanksha :)

[Idea credits (kind of) to my awesome sister because we happened to be talking about infinity and this all came up, Ending credits to Aditi because she helped me figure out what was missing. Picture credits to my friend Aditya who posted it on instagram.]