I think I spent a week of February doing absolutely
nothing. Unless you count lying on my
bed, down with infection on my tonsils unable to speak, so that I had fairly
enough time to ruminate on what I want to do in life. Falling ill gave me the
chance to think clearly – a task already overdue.
But before that dismal week of mere reflection, I was
consumed by boredom. The air of despondency was chaffing me. I didn’t feel like
doing anything. The things I loved to do suddenly became dull. Playing tunes on
the keyboard became laborious, going for a run began to require an incentive and
writing transformed into an obligation. Studying with concentration was out of
the question. After all, how can you study well if you aren’t happy? If there
is nothing in store for you after you’re done with a good day’s work, why would
you finish the work in the first place? Also, all fun and no work creates boredom too. I was lost and a mess for that week. Many
people I know are going through the same thing. I think this is when we’re
confused the most, when we give up the fastest and feel low too. But this is
also probably the (only) time you can knock yourself out and slog away.
So how do you get out of this boredom? You’re not always
going to get a week to reflect on what you’ve been doing while staring at the
ceiling counting the minutes go by. :P I think it’s about having a routine, and
monitoring what you do every day. Small things like reaching college on time
help too! Also, counting how much you don't/do study in the whole day makes you realise that all the time you were studying was more of procrastination and less of work. My mom took hold of the reins of my life since all of this happened,
and needless to say, I got a bit mad. Since a few years, I’ve always got the
freedom to do as I pleased. That’s why being asked questions of what I’m doing
every six hours isn’t really nice, but for now, I guess it’s alright.
Many people I know have given up everything. One person
literally lets his mother control his life, as he believes he’ll mess up
everything if he has the freedom to do as he likes… Another girl I’ve talked to has no specific
past time except talking to her parents and brother along with walking in her
house! So many people spend the day in college, afternoon sleeping and evening
and night studying away. I still haven’t figured out whether it’s advisable to
give up everything or maintain a balance. But the sacrificers do well – that’s
what I noticed.
Currently, I’d say I’m having a balance. I think it's working for me too. I’ve got my mother
to make sure I study and my friends to make sure I won’t overdo it. My cousins
are there to bestow new puns on me every day and I’ve got a trinity exam of
Speech and Drama where my teacher asked five of us to come up with a dance (Me
dancing is an achievement. Those who know me would know this.) All in all, life’s
good. How about you?
“From the day we arrive
on the planet
And blinking, step
into the sun
There's more to be
seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can
ever be done
Some say eat or be
eaten
Some say live and
let live
But all are agreed
as they join the stampede
You should never
take more than you give
In the circle of
life
It's the wheel of
fortune
It's the leap of
faith
It's the band of
hope
Till we find our place
On the path
unwinding
In the circle, the
circle of life” – The Lion King
Kanksha :)
Thanks for reading!
