Getting back on track.

I think I spent a week of February doing absolutely nothing.  Unless you count lying on my bed, down with infection on my tonsils unable to speak, so that I had fairly enough time to ruminate on what I want to do in life. Falling ill gave me the chance to think clearly – a task already overdue.

But before that dismal week of mere reflection, I was consumed by boredom. The air of despondency was chaffing me. I didn’t feel like doing anything. The things I loved to do suddenly became dull. Playing tunes on the keyboard became laborious, going for a run began to require an incentive and writing transformed into an obligation. Studying with concentration was out of the question. After all, how can you study well if you aren’t happy? If there is nothing in store for you after you’re done with a good day’s work, why would you finish the work in the first place? Also, all fun and no work creates boredom too. I was lost and a mess for that week. Many people I know are going through the same thing. I think this is when we’re confused the most, when we give up the fastest and feel low too. But this is also probably the (only) time you can knock yourself out and slog away.

So how do you get out of this boredom? You’re not always going to get a week to reflect on what you’ve been doing while staring at the ceiling counting the minutes go by. :P I think it’s about having a routine, and monitoring what you do every day. Small things like reaching college on time help too! Also, counting how much you don't/do study in the whole day makes you realise that all the time you were studying was more of procrastination and less of work. My mom took hold of the reins of my life since all of this happened, and needless to say, I got a bit mad. Since a few years, I’ve always got the freedom to do as I pleased. That’s why being asked questions of what I’m doing every six hours isn’t really nice, but for now, I guess it’s alright.

Many people I know have given up everything. One person literally lets his mother control his life, as he believes he’ll mess up everything if he has the freedom to do as he likes…  Another girl I’ve talked to has no specific past time except talking to her parents and brother along with walking in her house! So many people spend the day in college, afternoon sleeping and evening and night studying away. I still haven’t figured out whether it’s advisable to give up everything or maintain a balance. But the sacrificers do well – that’s what I noticed.

Currently, I’d say I’m having a balance. I think it's working for me too. I’ve got my mother to make sure I study and my friends to make sure I won’t overdo it. My cousins are there to bestow new puns on me every day and I’ve got a trinity exam of Speech and Drama where my teacher asked five of us to come up with a dance (Me dancing is an achievement. Those who know me would know this.) All in all, life’s good. How about you?

“From the day we arrive on the planet

And blinking, step into the sun

There's more to be seen than can ever be seen

More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten

Some say live and let live

But all are agreed as they join the stampede

You should never take more than you give

In the circle of life

It's the wheel of fortune

It's the leap of faith

It's the band of hope

Till we find our place

On the path unwinding

In the circle, the circle of life” – The Lion King

Kanksha :)

Thanks for reading!