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You could be stressed with university applications but the thought of a final year trip with your friends sweetens your mind. You could be sad because of a life-changing unpredictable scenario that you are going through, but undertaking a creative project, like buying a colouring book and penciling through mandalas could make you scrunch your eyes in delight. Joining a community that runs every Saturday full of positive vibes and support for each other is exciting, even if that means kicking yourself out of bed at 5:30 am on a weekend. And no matter what you do, finally actively working towards publishing a book you have written, or beginning a YouTube channel, is going to make your stomach get entangled like spaghetti.
My relationship with writing is a pretty hot and cold one, only depending on how I feel about it. It is the least of my priorities and currently, at least, that is how I feel it should be. Which is why I am publishing a blog post after so long. But the big break that I took also geared me up again. There are so many new ideas I want to explore. The creative part of me is screaming to take up new projects and I just hope they actually materialise and leave me with being productive and happy. But this is fun, right? The fear of the unknown, coming back to something that you love after so long and feeling the energy and comfort, and all the things that you have learned or been through coming together to provide even more inspiration?
There are lots of times when you are feeling a particular feeling, and suddenly something happens which replaces it with the blossoming of another feeling. The excitement of something new beginning tends to be the replacement. I think excitement is the one thing that cannot be controlled or contained. It gets triggered irrespective of how your current state of mind is.
Along with this strong feeling at the beginning of something, there also exists one at the end. This is when you see how much you have grown and how much those experiences have taught you. It nudges you towards a period of reflection, you feel nostalgic, and overall bittersweet. It's over. I am so glad. I do not want it to be over. There is relief. There is anxiety of what will happen next. There is excitement. You see, it's always a mixture. The beginning and end of things are often fuzzy. The day ends, the night begins. The night ends and it is morning again. A tsunami destroys a city as it is known to be. Weeks later people are building it back together. You get done with lunch, it is soon time to prepare dinner. The anticipation of the next examination, next episode, or e-mail. The next trip being lowkey planned on the last night of the one that you are on - this happens with my school gang all the time. And the 365.25 days left before your next birthday. Whew!
The end of this year, however it has been for you, is also the beginning of a new one. I think I tend to do posts on the new year sometime during the last week of December sharing nuggets of wisdom I have accumulated over twenty odd years. But this one had to come out sooner. Because I want all of you to do TODAY, whatever you had thought you would do in 2019. No more waiting for an ending before you begin something new.
Drown yourself in the excitement. Feel the anticipation. Take control to feel out of control in a good way.
Right now, buddy. Make the boundaries even fuzzier.
Kanksha
You could be stressed with university applications but the thought of a final year trip with your friends sweetens your mind. You could be sad because of a life-changing unpredictable scenario that you are going through, but undertaking a creative project, like buying a colouring book and penciling through mandalas could make you scrunch your eyes in delight. Joining a community that runs every Saturday full of positive vibes and support for each other is exciting, even if that means kicking yourself out of bed at 5:30 am on a weekend. And no matter what you do, finally actively working towards publishing a book you have written, or beginning a YouTube channel, is going to make your stomach get entangled like spaghetti.
My relationship with writing is a pretty hot and cold one, only depending on how I feel about it. It is the least of my priorities and currently, at least, that is how I feel it should be. Which is why I am publishing a blog post after so long. But the big break that I took also geared me up again. There are so many new ideas I want to explore. The creative part of me is screaming to take up new projects and I just hope they actually materialise and leave me with being productive and happy. But this is fun, right? The fear of the unknown, coming back to something that you love after so long and feeling the energy and comfort, and all the things that you have learned or been through coming together to provide even more inspiration?
There are lots of times when you are feeling a particular feeling, and suddenly something happens which replaces it with the blossoming of another feeling. The excitement of something new beginning tends to be the replacement. I think excitement is the one thing that cannot be controlled or contained. It gets triggered irrespective of how your current state of mind is.
Along with this strong feeling at the beginning of something, there also exists one at the end. This is when you see how much you have grown and how much those experiences have taught you. It nudges you towards a period of reflection, you feel nostalgic, and overall bittersweet. It's over. I am so glad. I do not want it to be over. There is relief. There is anxiety of what will happen next. There is excitement. You see, it's always a mixture. The beginning and end of things are often fuzzy. The day ends, the night begins. The night ends and it is morning again. A tsunami destroys a city as it is known to be. Weeks later people are building it back together. You get done with lunch, it is soon time to prepare dinner. The anticipation of the next examination, next episode, or e-mail. The next trip being lowkey planned on the last night of the one that you are on - this happens with my school gang all the time. And the 365.25 days left before your next birthday. Whew!
The end of this year, however it has been for you, is also the beginning of a new one. I think I tend to do posts on the new year sometime during the last week of December sharing nuggets of wisdom I have accumulated over twenty odd years. But this one had to come out sooner. Because I want all of you to do TODAY, whatever you had thought you would do in 2019. No more waiting for an ending before you begin something new.
Drown yourself in the excitement. Feel the anticipation. Take control to feel out of control in a good way.
Right now, buddy. Make the boundaries even fuzzier.
Kanksha
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