Monday, 22 January 2018
What People Do To Me
Friday, 19 January 2018
Bullies
The older kids that never let you play hide and seek with them and made fun of you till you got them chocolate,
The teacher that made sure you did the project as she wanted by being picky about things like green crepe paper for trees and brown velvet paper for the trunk,
The 'friends' who constantly make fun of you and make you feel alone,
And any of those people who not-with-good-intentions force you out of your comfort zone
They're bullies.
Maybe they're aware of what they're doing, maybe they aren't. But that doesn't mean that you have to deal with it.
And the bullying doesn't stop as you get older. It just changes seasons and becomes more sophisticated.
When you were young the teacher would sit and question both sides, trying to figure out who's right. Then the person who was wrong would get punished. Sit in the corner maybe, asked to introspect what went wrong. Most often the person would end up plotting against the bullied kid again and on executing the plan, the whole cycle would repeat.
And that's what happens with first class bullies. Firstly, they don't stop. But more importantly, they don't think they're doing anything wrong. Their bad behaviour is okay because the poor kid can't do anything about it. And even if the kid stands up for himself, there isn't really anyone to believe him.
At the college level, teachers turn a blind eye when you're scoring well and batchmates do the same because the person acts differently with different people. At your dream job, it'll come from your boss and you probably won't say anything because the job is very dear to you.
I think at the end of the day, we need to weigh the odds about whether the cause you're getting bullied for is worth it or not. What are you really getting out of it? If you've already got most of what you wanted, or the value addition is miniscule, please get out. Don't put up with it for so long if there are better things to do. If your boss at Google* treats you awfully, go get a job at Facebook and shove it in his face. So yes, you need to have a back up plan. You can't just quit because you'll ruin things for yourself. But you have to figure out a way out of it, even if it isn't quitting. Giving back to the bully isn't always an option, because you'll probably end up sabotaging good things and affecting others along the way. Speaking up isn't an option either, because that person has already built a reputation that can't be tainted.
But what we really need to think about is how to turn such a situation into a favourable one for ourselves.
How do you do that?
Love always,
Kanksha
*Taken names just for the sake of example.
Thursday, 11 January 2018
What matters to you?
😀😀😀😊😊😊ツツツ |
“In a universe so big, the earth is nothing but a pale blue dot. Just from a galaxy away, you might not even realise that we even exist. And there are millions of galaxies. There are gazillion planets and infinite stars. So yes, our solar system is like our mini-infinity. In this mini infinity, there are so many things we never procrastinate about (unless we have to study or work because that's the perfect time for all of us to wonder about every aspect of life) For instance, every glance in the darkness shows you the past. If the sun decides to disappear one day, you'll realise it took that decision eight minutes later. The star you see millions of light years away looked like that millions of light years ago. You'll never know how it looks like at the moment.
^But does this matter?
Today, I'll ask you the question every student applying to Stanford will be answering this year. What matters to you?”
Two things:
1. In 2014, I knew what question every student applying to Stanford would be answering, and now I don’t.
2. I'm still not sure about what matters.
Those amusing moments spent with your friends, the solace in a library, and feeling-in-place in a strange place – they’re just the smaller things that keep you going as you work towards the bigger things that matter.
So today, I'll still ask you the same question. What matters to you?
Always providing food for thought for the hungry,
Kanksha
P.S.: Did you know that ツ is the Katakana letter tu?
(Yeah, I know. Doesn't matter.)
Saturday, 6 January 2018
New year, New day
I had a Kanksha day today.
Wanted to wake up at 7:00am, woke up at 8:30. Was supposed to leave at 10:00am, left at 10:13. Reached the station quick enough only to find out that I've forgotten my lunch box. Dad came to give it to me (and proceeded to go to office) and I got into the next train that I was supposed to take.
I have two categories of Kanksha days - either days when I'm always late inspite of having the intention of being on time because the world just doesn't want me to, or crazy busy days when there's something or the other happening throughout the day and I get time to sit back only when I have to sleep.
Then there are Disha days. Days when you're feeling lazy and don't do anything, staring at the ceiling while you put your feet back and relax doesn't count. Or days when all you do is read, eat, and sleep with the occasional computer game level up perhaps. There are Aditi days full of productivity, where you get so much work done, it's unbelievable. Something like the second category of a Kanksha day. There are Bhavya days when everything goes wrong, from which she'll make everyone laugh their heads off at the dinner table because she makes it sound funny instead of miserable.
And I don't want to think about or analyse anything in this blogpost. But this year, hope you have a little bit of Kanksha, Disha, Aditi, and Bhavya days in your life. Don't stick to your own days, keep exploring. There are 365 different ones you want to live before the next year, of course. Things will go wrong, you will be late, traffic will be there when you have an important meeting, and there will be days when you accomplish all and even more than you planned. You'll feel lazy and staying in bed, you'll feel like getting out of the house and crave a vacation too but revel in all those moments since it's those moments that make your year your year. They give you things to talk about, things to think about - they give you stories.
You're a living story, this year try to act like it.
Love always,
Kanksha